Moving

I've been a little absent lately, but for good reason.  We moved into a new apartment.  Same apartment complex, but different building.  We were having some issues that were not getting fixed, so they moved us to a new apartment.

While I'm glad to be in a new (and seemingly better) apartment, moving is a pain.

I went into a major purge-mode and got rid of a lot of stuff.  When we move, it always amazes me how much STUFF we have, especially stuff we don't really use or need anymore.  I'm sure we donated about 10 boxes of clothes and other things, and we still have more stuff to go through.

We came across the box of Lucas' things and for the first time, we looked at everything.  All the blankets from the hospital, his growth charts, clothes that we bought for him and he never got to wear, his footprints.... I felt my heart break into a million pieces all over again.  I want to get a memory box for most of the things and for the clothes and blankets, I'm planning on having a quilt made someday.  Getting a memory quilt made is a bit expensive so we will have to save up for it, but hopefully we can do it soon.

The twins' birthday is coming up next Tuesday and my emotions are all over the place.  While I'm so excited to celebrate Miller turning a year old, my heart is so broken that Lucas isn't here.  I guess it's always going to be like this to some degree.